daughterslove's Cancer Blog

May 6, 2008

quick update! (good news)

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hey everyone- its been a few days, thought i might update. well my mother marian met with her new oncologist today. he was VERY positive and told her it’s “rare” when people die from this type of cancer. he told her the treatments are gonna be VERY agressive and she’ll be sick but he thinks shes gonne be OK. =) she got her petSCAN results back and their CLEAR! so the cancer didnt spread anywhere else in her body just her neck. so far good news. 1 thing i’m upset about, i dont know if i’m being selfish or not, but i found some realllly good specialist that specialize in this type of cancer. their are from sloans kettering one of the WORLDS best cancer center. i want my mother to see him and get a secound opinion! hes like the best of the best. well shes sooo suborn she saying its TOO far. but is YOUR life..wouldnt you want to do whatever it takes ?? i did all this research and now she doesnt wanna do it. she wants to stay here in jersey with her new oncologist. i dunno its her choice. tomorrow shes going to get fitted for the radiation mask. & friday shes going to get 1 tooth pulled and 5 fillings! after she recovers – the FIGHT is ON! WE’RE READY.. SO BRING IT CANCER - WE’LL KICK YOUR ASSSSSSSSSS!

Posted on May 6, 2008 at 6:19:39 PM by Rachel ( quick update! (good news), 2 comments)

Nice ending! I jumping in the cyber ring with you guys in full support of kicking Cancer’s ASS!

Posted on May 6, 2008 at 8:38:20 PM by jill

Hi, I read your story and wish your mom all the luck. I have just been diagnosed with throat cancer and will have the pet scan next week. I am very concerned with what they may find. I will keep watching and praying for ya’ll.

Posted on May 8, 2008 at 3:05:03 PM by angel (unverified)

May 3, 2008

first day back at work!

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well i’ve been so sick over the past week from the cancer news that i’ve heard about my mom. all week didnt shower,work, clean, NOTHING. all i did was cry. i’m all cried out now. i finally went to work! i felt so much better working and had way more energy then i do at home! i kept on my feet. i couldnt stop thinking about her. everyone there knows her (shes worked at my job for 7 years ) maybe thats why work is even harder for me. everyone there is like family. their actually doing some type of bake sale for a fund raiser since shes out of work now. i definitely feel that my work is a BIG huge support system. they all L0VE my mom. everyone is devastated at the sametime. last night, i went to sleep with knots in my stomach, and guess what? i woke up with them =( my stomachs been turning allll day. OK - heres for the great news! my mom came down to NJ (where i live now) from PA! she was going to a cancer center in PA when she kept telling me and her husband “im gonna be ok, i’ll drive myself to radation” umm no she cant! i dont even think she KNOWs what shes gonna be going through and how sick she’ll be. so my aunts talked my step dad into moving back down here to NJ so she can be with us. so we can all come together and help her. if she stays in PA she be all alone and very sick. we dont want that. so im so so soooo excited my mommy is moving back for the 7weeks for radation! its pretty much offical. oh , and i havent seen her in a couple weeks, i’m gonna be seeing her in about 15 minuntes i cant wait. this is the first time i’m gonna be seeing her since i found out. im gonna hug her so tight and not wanan let go. but then again, i’m soooo nervous on how i’m gonna act. i dont want her to see my cry. i DONT wanna see her cry. how do u cope with this? is it ok to cry? everyone is telling me NO! BE STRONG FOR HER! feedback please.

Mac – thank you so much for your reply. it helped me alot. im happy you support me and i support you. i look forward on getting to know you and becoming a new friend. i see gonna catch up and read your posts. i will though.
—Rachel

Posted on May 3, 2008 at 12:32:08 PM by Rachel ( first day back at work!, 1 comment)

“Be strong for her”..as if not crying makes cancer vanish.

Let me make a suggestion…be real for her, cry with her, let her know it is okay to cry and be scared. It is not alright to give up but it is more than okay to be real and honest and this is really scary and really ugly and REALLY sucks.

But it also really important to stay hopeful and faithful and positive. To be open to the fact that some days are gonna be tear filled and some days will be laughter filled. Don’t waste a second, this is the ultimate wake up call. say whats in your heart, love and be loved.

You will do fine and this will make you see you are both so much stronger than either of you believe.

Be blessed
Mac

Posted on May 3, 2008 at 2:30:58 PM by rigidridr

May 2, 2008

The begining

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well monday april 28th i found out that my bestfriend, my M0THER has Squamous cell of the tonsil. stage 4! this is the worst news we could ever get. we just buried my aunt just this past decemember for lung cancer! i cant go through with this. I’m gonna have to take care of her and everything. i cant lose her im not ready to. doctors say theres a good chance of survival with this type. except it’s the worse with radation and chemo b.c it goes inside your mouth and burns your tounge. leaving sores, and blisters! she has to get a tooth pulled out & get a PEG tube put in next week. this is all happening soo quicky i can barely catch my breath! please give me advice, stories, success.. i dont know. im so lost. i’m only 19! i would also like to learn about other cancers and such – so i’d be more then happy for you guys to share your stories. ( i’m going to school to be a nurse) radation 5 x a week for 7 weeks! it still hasnt hit me yet at all. all i know is, we have a longggg journey to go!

Posted on May 2, 2008 at 4:21:27 PM by Rachel ( The begining, 1 comment)

Deep breaths…slow deep breaths.
My oldest son was 17 when I found out I had bladder cancer, his sister was 14 and the baby was 11. They were scared, so was I. So we hugged and we cried, then we got up and got busy living.

Your mom is a very lucky woman! So are you! You have each other to lean on. You WILL prevail, together. There will be good days and days that could be better and days that require tears and a blanket and fuzzy slippers, but when you look back, you will realize that each of those days was and is precious.

Come here when you need a “hug”, bring mom, get a cup of coffee and read about all of these wonderful survivors. Look at the pictures of them laughing and loving and crying. Read about the vibrant lives they are leading in the face of this evil disease and know that you will write your story and your hopes and your dreams. You will come here and blog your fears and joys, the good and the bad, and that someone else will come here at the darkest moment of their life and find hope and peace and encouragement.

I will be praying for you and mom. You are not alone and you and mom will not only survive, you will overcome.

Mac

Posted on May 3, 2008 at 2:44:25 AM by rigidridr